Posted in Personal

In 2022.

Me, inside my head again.

After everything that happened in 2020, I just wanted to forget and move on and so, I started 2021 without being intentional about the things I wanted and the goals I wanted to achieve.

So dear reader, I took whatever 2021 handed to me because I didn’t allow myself to want much. At some point, I felt like I didn’t even deserve much. It was almost as if I was comfortable where I was and that was my mistake.

I won’t be making the same mistake this year. I am no longer comfortable where I’m at and I want to enjoy all the good things life has to offer in 2022 and more.

In 2022, I want to be proud of myself, love myself, accept myself and stop hiding in the shadows. I don’t want to compare myself to others and I want to be able to speak up for what I believe in and defend what is right with my chest.

In 2022, I want to work towards my growth financially, spiritually, emotionally, and physically because why should I remain stagnant?

In 2022, I want to be happy, not for a while but for a long time. I want to be content, grateful for the things I have while not losing hope and faith. I want to be fulfilled in every aspect of life and I want to be at peace with all men.

In 2022, I don’t want to be an option, I want to be the main selection. I don’t want to be anyone’s second choice, I want to be the only choice. I want to throw being fake in the dustbin because that’s where it belongs.

In 2022, I want to be forgiving, I don’t want to lose anyone, and I want to say “I love you” only when I mean it and I want the people that say they love me to love truly and love me for all that I am.

In 2022, I am going to get all the things I want because I deserve them. I hope this year is ready for me because I am ready.

How about you?

Love,

‘Ruona ❤️.

P.S:

Happy New Year’s Eve! I’ll be seeing you in 2022.

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Posted in Random

365/366

The past 300 days were a lot and honestly, to be present in this world after everything that happened is a gift in itself because, despite all odds, we made it this far 🥺.

I want to say thank you. Thank you for sticking with this blog, thank you for clicking on my links, dropping your thoughts, and sharing my work even when you didn’t have to. You encourage me to do this thing I love doing and it means so much to me. Thank you for being a part of my year.

When I started writing this, I didn’t know the direction this post will go but all I could feel was how grateful I was and I legit struggled with words to express how I was feeling so I decided to just flow with it because why not?

There’s no need to recount the things that happened this year because, for some, it was more of losses than gains. I won in some areas but I lost too and there’s no way I’ll ever forget this year because this has been the most trying year for me emotionally, spiritually and even physically but despite everything, I am grateful.

2020 taught me a lot but one major thing I learned this year is that life can play you anytime. Do you think you have it figured out? You’re wrong. If you don’t believe in God and yourself, there’s every possibility that things can come crashing down. If you’re not intentional about what you do and why you’re doing it, you might just end up losing your way.

Life can play you anytime.

In all honesty, nothing is guaranteed. What if you lose a job or the love of your life says he/she doesn’t want to be with you anymore or someone dies? I mean, nobody plans for any of these circumstances and this year didn’t prepare us for any of these but you see, they happened and we’ve been dealing with them in one way or another and while it’s okay to feel bad for some time, how long is enough? What do we do to move on especially as 2021 is coming?

Don’t get me wrong. I know that entering a new year doesn’t automatically take the pain of these past 365 days away but learning what I’ve learned this year, I’ve realized that we need to make sure our lives have meaning at all times. Do not put off making yourself happy and do not forget to live for yourself instead of living for others. Yes, you’re allowed to be selfish sometimes because you matter. Be kind, selfless, and be many shades of positive because we don’t know what tomorrow may bring.

One other thing… In a world such as this, there’s no need for you to downplay other people’s happiness and excitement. Allow other people to breathe and do not make them feel guilty for being happy. Do not be a sadist for no reason. How long should people wallow in pain, please? It would do a lot of good if you quit making people feel terrible and you quit reminding them of their pain and problems especially if you have no solution. Just let love lead because it is hard enough as it is.

I’ve chosen to start 2021 with hope and I’ve decided to take one day at a time. It may not be easy but I’m determined to drown my pessimism in my optimism. I’m going to fight for those I love and the things I believe in. I don’t want to be scared anymore. I’m going to make this next year work for me by God’s grace and I hope it will be better, I hope it gets better.

Thank you again for all you do. See you next year.

Love,

‘Ruona ❤️

P.S:

How are you doing?

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Let’s take a minute to hail Mr & Mrs. Scissors that have started cutting people off 😏

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Happy New Year in advance.

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